Masks

This has really been a week of doing things differently, and that is what life is all about the only thing certain in our life is change, and we should embrace it.........................
Today is Saturday, and i decided yesterday that i was going to have a lie in this morning, no gym, no hair appointments, no nail appointments, no taking anyone anywhere no doing anything for anyone except me i know it sounds rather selfish, but all the motivational books tell you that you have to love yourself and spoil yourself in order for others to love you....................... Truth of the matter is i knew it was going to be freezing cold this morning and did not want to venture outside until it was a "tad" warmer.
I have had a very soul searching week, i have had to face a few truths head on, and realised that we all wear masks, and only show others what we want them to see............... what we think it is safe to show them........... how much information we think people can digest............... I was priveleged this week to read a friends message on faith, i have been friends with this person that more years than i care to remember, and i realised that even after all these years there were things that i did not know about her, how could i have not know, how could i have not understood, how could i not have put the pieces of the puzzle together, was i to young, too stupid, did i just not care enough....................... or was her mask so entrenched in who she was that she never showed anyone the truth behind the mask................................ The bible says it is better to have a friend who can pick you up when you are down, who can hold you accountable, who can lead you back to the path you should be on................ I want to be that kind of friend.
I also came to the realisation that it is so difficult to change ourselves, how do we think ,we , "humans" can change someone else. I am going through the book, as i have said many times, The Power of the Praying wife, and i thought that i was really praying into the book, really seeing the truth, and then a throw away remark from my prayer partner, had me all mixed up................. and i had to reaccess am i really praying into this book, this book that asks us to change, asks us to put all our faith in God so that he can change our partners...........
We normally pray on Fridays but for circumstances beyond our control, we had to move it to Sunday, although it was her turn to come to my house, I said don't worry i'll come to you and then you will not have to leave your husband at home, she said something like but what about your husband, and i said something along the lines of SO WHAT................ this week the chapter we prayed into was about PRIORITIES, about how important it what to put God first, then your husband and then your children.................. before work, before friends, before activities, before reading, before televison, before all other things..........................................how important it was to let your husband know he was your main priority..................................... thinking back i don't think i have ever done this........................... so how has this book made me change..............................do i still have my mask on............................ do i even know who the person is behind the mask............................