Christmas

Yesterday was the perfect Christmas day for me, it was overcast and raining, and there was no presents to open....................nothing not one ................ no pretending that you like something, no disappointment when you did not get what you wanted, no sulking because someone got more than you, no broken anything, no gadgets that needed batteries which were not included .................................... for as long as i can remember i have not liked Christmas...........................
As a child i remember cold Christmas's we would venture out no matter what the weather, we would go and have Christmas lunch with one of the Grans and then later on go and visit the other Gran for dessert............... we would go and see all our cousins and i remember it being fun.
When we came to South Africa i have never got used to the hot Christmas's it just does not feel like Christmas, my sisters would wake up early we would open all our presents and then they would all go back to sleep, something that i have never been able to do and would leave me awake all alone, by the time they eventually woke up i had already read most of the annuals which was always the rage when i was small............... younger ............ i don't think that they even print those annuals anymore................ i wonder why ..........
In South Africa we have always had Christmas dinner on Christmas Eve because it was just to hot too have it on Christmas day, so Christmas day was always left overs ........... leftover brussel sprouts still does not work for me .......................... we always had to have 4 brussel sprouts with our Christmas dinner, we all hated them and would disguise them with tomato sauce................ or when we were younger with my Grans rubber gravy, when you were given gravy you should also have been given a fishing rod, because after your food was drowned in it, it was always difficult to find you food with out messing it all over the table, yourself, your sister , the floor ...........................
This year with the wind blowing and the rain and the cold , it really felt like Christmas................... the time when Jesus was born to change the relationship of the human race with his father................ so i supposed that it makes sense that this Christmas for me is one of change ...... my life will never be the same again .................... but i will still make my children eat their brussel sprouts.............. so that sonething of my parents will always be present as Christmas..............................