New beginnings

 Be  very, very still and allow every new experience to take place in your life without any resistance    whatsoever........ You do not have to do anything, you simply have to be and let things happen (Eileen Caddy)

   
A  sincere  word  of   thanks  to you  all  for  your  prayers,  and  encouragement..........  I  couldn't  have  done it without you all,a big  thanks  to my "bestest"  friend,  for  always  showing  me that there  is a   light  at the end of the   tunnel, ............ I  have  had  three amazing  weeks, weeks  in  which  the  messages  I  received  were no less than a miracle..........................  I  have  always  been  something  of a  power  freak............  yes  no  kidding,  but  over the  last  few  years  have  more  and  more  given things  to God  including  my divorce,  and  everything went  smoothly, no fights, no arguing, everything falling into place.  But then I got a bee in my bonnet and  in the  words  of  old  " Blue Eyes"  I  tried  to  do the  division  of  assets  "MY WAY"  and  all hell  broke  loose,  the accusations,  the  retaliations, the  evil  spitting  forth of  insult  for  insult,  I  tried  to get the  division  of  assets through the  courts  and  doing this  we  would  have  lost  more than  half  of  everything...... I started  to  believe  the  things  that "The Ex One"  was  saying,  I  started  to  doubt  my  Christianity,  I  started  to doubt  by  faith,  I  started  to  doubt my self................... and found myself  in  a  downward  spiral  a  dark  place  where  i  didn't  want to be.... and  then  God  took  over.............
Two weeks ago  at  our  cell,  we  watched  a DVD  of  Louis  Giglio,  it  is  my  DVD  I  have  had  it  for  about 5  months  and  never  got  around  to watching  it...........  well, maybe I  should  have  watched  it  sooner,  but  maybe  God  was  saving  it  just  for  a time  such  as  this,   it  was  about  no matter  what  you have  done  God  loves  you.........  you  are  an  awesome  being,   Holy Spirit  in  You,  Christs blood  covering  you,  and  God  taking  care  of  everything .........wow....................  Next  morning  i  get  to  work  and  my daily inspirational  message  is  "God  didn't  say  No,  he  said  not  Yet" ...........................  and  then  on Sunday  the  message  was  John 1: 12,  "  Yet  to those  who  received  Him,  to those  who believed  in His  Name,  He gave the  right  to become  children  of  God" ...............  and  I  said............ " I  read  you  loud  and  clear  Lord.................  " It  was   as  if  a  peace  came  over  me,   a realisation that  i  am  never  alone. "The  Ex  One"  no  longer  wakes  me every night  when  he  comes  home,   In  fact  although  we  share the same  house  I  can  go  days  without  seeing  him................ I get  to  be at home, and  he  has to go  out  to his new " family."......  but every night he leaves her  to come back  here.........  and  I thought  i  was  living  a  life  of hell......
And  as  i  sit  here on  my  beloved  verandah,  the  first  time in months, the  first time since  the  onset  of  winter, it is  just  a  few  days  from  the  first  day of  Spring,  as I   watch  the  birds  eating  from  the  bird  feeder and  see the  new green  leaves  on the  trees,  the  spots  of  colour in the garden  from  the  seedlings  that  I planted  in anticipation of just a day like  this ...........  I  realise  that  this  is  the  season  of  New  Beginnings,  it  is the  season  of  Hope,  the  season  of  change,  the  season  of  new  growth,  the  season  of  colour,  of  new  life, it  is  time  to  take  off  the  old  and  put  on the  new, it  is  time  to  leave  the past  behind  and  more  on to the furture........ Gods  timing  is  perfect   I  am  through  the Winter,  and  how amazing  to have  Spring, with  all its  beauty  only  a  few  days  away........................

Spring

Spring is in the air, you can almost taste it, the rain we had last week washed everything clean, the trees are showing off there new green leaves, and the fruit trees are covered with the a blanket of pink snow, and we know that this is its promise of fruit in a few months time. Although the early mornings and evenings remind us that winter is not completely over the warmth of the days are sending us outside into the gardens , onto the verandahs, and out into the world that we have been hiding from during the winter months, it has given us hope that new life is on its way.
It is the time of the year when you start thinking about your life, and where you are going, the coldness of the winter in your life is gone, no matter how hard you try you can't hold on to it, life moves on with or without you, we think about the hurt, the worry, the darkness of the mornings and the evenings is symbolic of how we have been hibernating our feelings over the past months, not knowing what the future holds, with the bleakness of our surroundings we seem to view everything on a negative basis, there seems to be no beauty in the world everything seems to be grey and dead, just like our hope.............. and then almost overnight the warmth of the Spring days brings with them the prospects of happiness, spiritual growth, hope but most of all the promise of love........................
And then there is the Spring Cleaning, why do they call it that........... ...............it is not as though that is the only time of the year that you REALLY give your house a good clean, i think that Spring cleaning is much more than cleaning house it is almost a spritual cleansing, getting rid of all the old rubbish, getting rid of the cob webs, getting rid of all the stuff that you haven't used all year, it is almost a cleaning ritual, making everything shiny again, everything glowing with the cleaning that it has received, everywhere smelling like polish and bleach, and at the same time when we are in the frenzy of cleaning subconsiously we are clearing out our hearts of all the regrets, clearing out all the people who have hurt us in the past year, clearing out all the bitterness of dreams that have been crushed and desires that have not been fullfilled.
As we clean up our material lives, so we are cleaning up our spiritual lives out with the old and onto the new, you see every Spring we are given a new chance, a new live, a new season to try again, with the new season we are given a chance to make new friends, to dream new dreams and to fulfill the desires of our hearts, but most of all we are given the chance to be the best we can be..................................................because that is what God created you to be.