Saturday, January 2, 2010

New Year

New  Year,  that  time  of  the  year we  get  a chance  to  reflect  on  those  things  we  should  have  done,  those  people  we  could  have/should  have  helped,  a  brand  new  beginning a  chance  to  start  again,  to  change  those  things  about  ourselves  and our  lives  that  we  are  not  happy with,  to  take  the perverbial  bull by the horns,  and  start  the  year again  with  a  clean  page........   we  get  to chose  the  "ink"  we  get  to chose the  "font"  we  get  to  chose  the  "format"  and  is  that  not  what  new  beginnings  are  all about  choices ..........
Yesterday  i  spoke  to someone  at  a braai,  he was  outside  smoking  and  i asked  him,  why he  had  not  given  up smoking  as a New  Years  resolutions,  as  it  was  expensive  and unhealthy,  his  answer  was  he only  makes  one  New  Years  resolution every  year  and  this  year  it  was to wake  up  and  jump  straight  into  the  pool........  it  made  me  think  how  sad,  that  he  had  nothing  to  challenge  himself  with,  nothing  to  push  himself  towards,  his  goals  for  the year  had  been  achieved  two  minutes  after  he  had  woken  up, although  we  don't  always  succeed  New  Years  Resolutions  give  us  the opportunity to reflect,  on  our  lives  and  what  we  can  and  need to  do  to  make  them  richer ............ It  doesn't  matter that  you  don't  always  succeed...............  what  matters  is  your  tried...................
In  line  with  my decisions  before  my  daughter  and  i  went  on  our  "road  trip" i have  been  trying  to  do everything  differently,  but  just  a word  of  advise  for future  reference,  Morrocan  Lamb  is  not  a supper  option  on  a long  trip  it  is  very........very .......  very  rich  and  the  330  kilometers  between  Bloemfontein  and  the  first  garage  is  very far  when  you  have  a need ...............................
My  New  Year  definitely  started  off differently  i  stayed  in  my pyjamas  until  11 o'clock,  i am  normally up  early  and  by at  least  7 o'clock  am  bathed  and dressed  and  ready  to  start  the day,  i can  tell you  it  was  not  easy,  the  bath  i am  positive  was calling  my name,  and  i had  to fight  of  the temptation  to  do  things  the  same,  I   made  the salads,  i made  the pudding  for  the braai,  i did  the washing,  i hung  all the  pictures  that  have  been lying  around  all year waiting  for  someone  to have  the  time  to  show  them  off on  the walls,   i gave  myself  a  face  mask  and walked  around  for  an  hour  looking  like  a cracked  old clay  pot ............. and  then  had  the  bath,  i  must  say  i quite  enjoyed  it  and  think  i  will definitely  make  it  something  that  i incorporate  into  my weekends.
I  made  a point  at the braai  to speak  to every  person  there  and  realised  that  we  all just  want  to be  accepted,  that we  all want  to be  part  of  something,  that  we  all need to belong .......................... it  is amazing  how  interesting  people are  when  you  just  take  the  time  to talk  to them.
This  morning  i  woke  up  and  realised   for the first  time  in  a  long  time  i  had  dreamt  last  night,  the dream  was  so vivid,  and  so  weird .........  because  i  dream't that  i  was  getting married,  which  is  strange  because  of  the fact  that  i have  started  divorce  proceedings...........  so  i  looked  up  what  this  means  and  i  was amazed  and  surprised  by what i  read............
"Marriage  symbolizes  the  union  of  the opposite  forces  in  your  psyche and  the  consequent achievement  of  wholeness,  marriage is  a  symbol  of  the power  and  wisdom  that  lies  in  the  deep  parts of our  psyche"
And  all i could  add to  that  is  WOW ......................

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